2nd Prenatal Check Up

Time flies, ya, now when I looked back, time really flies, but when I was in it, it's slow like a snail. I dont want to look back how I got through these 4 weeks. I was counting my fingers each and every sleepless nights. Yeah, finally it's my 12 weeks prenatal check up.

I insisted to have hubby with me to the clinic ( I didn't drive for 2 mths, I'm kinda scared). Since I'm going to have the 12 weeks scan today, so we arrived earlier to do the scan before seeing Dr Foong. We're there at 5.30pm, waited for 5 mins. My turn to do the scan.

To tell you the truth, though it's already my 3rd pregnancy, I still feel touched when I saw my baby image from the monitor. The specialist told me 'Ya, this is your baby, only one baby, this is the baby's head, feet and hand. Since we're doing the NT scan today, so there're 2 things that we need to identify, first is the nasal bone', after changing angle here and there, she found the nasal bone.

Next, she told me we need to check the thickness of the baby's neck skin fold. She told me the normal level is up to 2.5mm, anything more than that, consider abnormal. I cant believe my eyes when I saw the measurement, it's 5mm. That's that mean my baby is abnormal ?? Can anyone answer me ??

She called Dr Foong, and told him about the situation. Dr Foong came down to do the scan again. When he looked at the monitor, I hoped that he's going to say something different...something positive...He queitly did the measurement again. After all done, when I was about to get down from the bed. Dr Foong stopped me and said ' That's okay, when this happens, we're sorry for you too, dont be too upset'...Ohh my, I know him, he seldom talks, but this round, I cant believe what he's just said to me. I was totally devastated, I was scared, I was upset, I was.....crying inside. Is he telling me that my baby is abnormal ?

I looked at hubby, he's trying to calm me. Doc also told us the option that we've. Since the scan is only 70% accurate, we can opt for AMU Test, that's to test the aminofluid, by inserting a very dedicated needle through my abdominal to my uteras, extract the fluid. After the result is confirmed, then we can opt to keep the baby or abortion.

What ? Abortion ? I never thought Abortion could happens to me ?? Same goes to 'Down Syndrome', I never thought this Genetic abnormality could hit me ?? I've 2 healthy babies, how could this happens to me ?Why ? Why me ?? It maybe too early to conclude that abortion is the answer. But why ?? I'm already into 12 weeks pregnancy, 2 more weeks, when morning sickness gets better, I can start enjoying my pregnancy....Why me ? Why is this happening to me ??

Before I left Dr Foong's room, I can see that there's sympathy in his eyes...what else can I expect ? A very senior gynae like him, his experiences said it all. Do you think he cant guess what's the outcome of my AMU test ??

However, in order to do the AMU Test, he asked to wait for another 4 weeks, that's when baby bigger and more fluid in my water bag. So, we've arranged to do the test on 6th Aug.

How am I going to get through these 4 weeks ?!!